Down and Out
Shout out to you if you're reading or listening
To you who doesn't really want much but you were just checking in
To you who wants everything to be ok
To you who always finds a way to say hey
To you if you're like me
Who lives through others happiness vicariously
But curiously wonder:
What about our own?
This is for you that always sends nice messages on the phone
To me - who always does the same to the wrong type
Caught in the vice of my life but I still see the light
Too nice to the wrong kind
So time to vacate those who don't reciprocate
This is to those who don't suppose
To those who are there as opposed
To those who say "they care" but are never really there
Down and out
A humbling reminder of what things are about
Whether you win or lose a bout
Shouldn't create doubt
Of who is in your corner and who holds you up
Being down and out u can see what's up
Soon as you get up
They come up like nothing ever happened
And you're the one who "changed" if you call their
bluff- watch their reactions
Caught in my feelings
But I'm really not feeling you and that's revealing
Energy invested in those that care - that's appealing
A couple Aces to help deal with the cards that life is
dealing
The Loss
My mind is telling me no but my body is telling me yes
I really wanna court and usher her - I must confess
And I'm trying not to be pressed
But it's hard not being stressed
Because baby girl is up there with the best of the best
From her attitude to the way that she's dressed
I'm trying to do what's best - because I'm looking for one who is
not like the rest
Let her ride
Se* aside
In her you can confide
Never lie
That's what I need
Type u want to be the head of your team
Shout out to all the people who know what I mean
But I sin and my flesh is weak
High heels tight skirt, professional walk-down the street
Score to win
But even if she were to let me in
She's incapable of really letting me in
Because being in love is the only way that I would win
And I know she ain't right
And I know she ain't wife
And I know I ain't right
But she is looking right
Perfect places looking tight
And tomorrow isn't promised so why not live for the night?
Comfortable losing in my own confusion
The part of me that wins is the part of me that's losing
Do You
Lot of times people tell me who I should be
I think about it - but it's better just being me
I can't see
Being anybody else
How can u be there for someone when you can't be there for
yourself?
Sometimes it's how the cards are dealt
Do you play do you fold?
Sometimes the heat makes you melt
Sometimes it's applied to make you bold
No matter how you felt
It just may not be in the code
Tighten up your belt
You're entering battle mode
Nobody said it would be easy so don't take it for granted
All these opinions on what I should do with my life - damn I can't
stand it
Accomplishments barely noticed
Failures remain in their focus
You focused on a larger picture but can't picture what their scope
is
At the end of the night
At the end of light
At the end of life
At the end of sight
Rest peacefully knowing you were true to yourself
Because when it all ends- the only person you end with is your
self
And not with anybody else
So just do you
At the end of the day you're all you need to remain true to
Cognition
Just me and my thoughts
Just me in my thoughts
Thinking about all the dilemmas that life brought
Thinking back to all of the "remembers" that life taught
So many hard lessons
So many nights I stayed up stressing
Not realizing that the fact that I was even up those nights was
such a blessing
Beauty beheld within the eyes
To some -there lies - just a piece of leftover steak
To one- their eyes- light up with surprise and they scrape the
plate
Overcoming obstacles
Hurdling heights people said were not possible
Not complement with being the norm
Stand on my own
Standing alone - every day a star is born
That's Just The Way It Is
Summer time is over .. It's cold outside - so I'm giving the cold
shoulder
Cause I've counted the days I've tried to behave
But they got me nowhere so I'm flipping the page
Nice guys finish in last place
So in order to win the race you have to switch that look on your
face
Or change your demeanor - don't forget
Da mean er - You get
The more people love it
Fear lasts longer than love when you think about it :
Think about your first kiss full of bliss as your reminisce on the
butterflies in your stomach when you first tasted their lips
Versus the feeling you had when you do this:
Think about your worst day no rays shining your way feeling your worst
way still terrified today
Fear of consequences fear of the reactions
No matter how long ago it was- you remember "fear" when
it first happened
And
The
Hurt
Watching someone you held in "high" regards get let
"low" beneath the dirt of the earth
Feelings get hurt dreams get crushed every day
Whether it's from you or someone else- it's going to happen anyway
AND
THE
PAIN
Never forget that from your brain
Doesn't celebrating the winner mean that you're celebrating the
slain?
Greatest lessons come with the biggest pain
That's just the way it is and that's just a part of the game
Jessica
She had just cried for the last time
She replied “you take it for granted, you think it’s yours, this is the last time.”
Problem was that I heard it all before
Problems that’s the part that we can’t ignore
I always thought I was playing a game
She wasn’t interested in keeping the score
Kept feeding her replies
Until she no longer replied
Now I’m stuck unable to get back what was mine
Maybe this feeling will subside
But that which you don’t pay attention to will eventually die
That’s the last time she cried
The last time I lied
The last time she replied
At least now I know why
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